jivy | 
05 9th, 2007| 
i am that small girl that’s sitting in the corner drinking strawberry tequila. no, not the girl looking cool and detached, the girl who smiled at you even though she doesn’t know you. the girl who hurries to go home to nap and sneak the net…that’s me! i always find myself smiling when i am alone, talking to myself on the mirror not that i am crazy but i enjoy imagining things on my own. i am a person with insight into sweeping social problems as well as the intricacies of personal struggle. everything in my life is devoted to solving, helping, healing, and growing, both myself and others. but here am i again…at the crossroad! i feel the world shattering to pieces, falling apart down to my feet! i am irritated with the sound of the rain, i feel sad when it’s pouring. i don’t consider myself a fun person, for am really not! although i like to discover new things…yes, i am inlove but i don’t have troubles about it! with all the blessings that i am receiving, i am not in the right position to complain and yet i couldn’t help it! every thing’s beginning to be blurry now, i need a good wiper to see clearly, my brain’s running out of power and i can’t use it wisely! should i ask for help? maybe! there’s one thing that i can say - up to this point of my life, i still struggle for the answers why certain things are happening when they are not supposed to. i may not be able to elaborate more about this matter but this one’s for sure: i wanna be happy, i am so hard pressed and i will not settle for less!
