beck syndrome

I’m still not feeling good kahit na namasyal kami sa russian market nila mama kanina at namili ng konti…ewan pag di maganda ang pakiramdam ko apektado ang kilos ko…di ko naman masabi na naiinis ako kasi baka maspoil naman ang bakasyon nila, ah basta naiinis ako pero di ko mailabas kaya sa sobrang inis ko nahilo ako sa loob nung market i tried to cool down nung makarating kami sa bahay, did some stuff and went down to the office to finish my tasks, tapos nag sound trip na lang ako. halos mabaon ko na sa limot na marami nga pala akong songs from beck, palibhasa di ko kinakalikot yun laptop ko kaya nalimutan ko ng meron pa nga pala akong mga bagay na nakasave kung san san, hehe! gumaan ng konti yun pakiramdam ko nung marinig ko yun kantang...

f-a-i-l-u-r-e

Failure is not reaching your goal, but in having no goal to reach. I was at the office when I suddenly feel uncomfortable of everything…i dunno if it’s my hormones acting up again or just the mere fact that there are things I am failing to achieve in my life now. if i will sum up how am I now, I couldn’t say that I’m not doing well – I have the kids with me here abroad, blessed to have another child in July and a work to survive the living plus Nestle as my partner. What else can I ask more??? But still deep inside me there’s a small voice that says ‘I am a failure’. Sigh. I’ve tried so many things and started many, too, but not all have a satisfactory result. I wasn’t able to finish some and others...