Learning by experience often is painful- and the more it hurts, the more you learn. i don’t wanna remember what i have done because i am too tired of feeling guilty and blaming myself! for now all i have to do is to move on and absorb the meaning of this saying - True luck consists not in holding the best of the cards at the table; luckiest is he who knows just when to rise and go home. definitely i have learned my lesson the hard way 
