I wasn’t able to have a good sleep this past few nights and I dont know if its because of the diet pills that I’m taking since I arrived from PI or I’m just stressed. But how can I be stressed when I just had a very interesting 2 weeks break?
So many reasons came, they’re coming like monsters in the dark, haunting and sending creeps to me…whoa!!! What’s happening to me? So, while I was having my break earlier I thought of going to a monastery. Last December I spent Christmas with a friend in Da Lat. It’s the Baguio City of Vietnam and I could say that the place is really beautiful! The weather is lovely during daytime and it is freezing cold at night, if I’m not mistaken the temperature was 8 degrees Celsius during our stay. My friend and I booked a whole day city tour for Christmas as a gift for ourselves since were celebrating away from our family. We did a lot of sight-seeings and our eyes were so full of beautiful sceneries. Before we ate lunch we stopped to a 13 years old monastery. I was amazed with the place! It’s not just beautiful and relaxing, it’s ENCHANTING, that’s the right adjective to use! Out of my curiousity I asked the tour guide some questions regarding the monastery and I learnt from him that people can come there for a retreat and do some meditation if they want to. They do not have any religion preferences, everybody’s welcome. People do not need to pay for their stay but of course they must show some gratitude to the monks that helped them throughout their meditation by giving donations or offering some good deeds that will be benificial for the monastery.
Now that I’m troubled with the way my life is going, I’m thinking of going there and try to sort out the things that I needed to do in my life. I need peace of mind and the antidote to solve all the ailments I’m feeling inside. I want to free my heart from diseases, from the bonds of confusion and to recognize the possibility of bringing the best out of me.
I’ve read inspiring stories of people who went to a silent retreat like this and it helped me a lot to think whether I should go or not. Hopefully, I’ll be able to find the answers to all of my questions and may all the monsters that are haunting will go away after my own retreat
LoVE is a many splendored thing! that’s what some people say, hehe!
This afternoon, I did a relief lesson for a colleague who’s away and I enjoyed the lesson with my students. Maybe because the topic’s so interesting, it’s all about “LOVE”. My students are at their curious stage in everything, so love is one of the things that’s making them chill most of the time! I’m not a love expert but they just kept asking so many questions to me…it turned out to be a very interesting discussion, because everybody’s giving their own opinion about L-O-V-E. Then there’s teasing around and it’s me that they’re teasing. How can I say so much thing when my love life is on a test??? I feel happy and bitter at the same time for reasons that’s hard to explain. But I’m still looking at the brighter side, I know time will come that the right person will approach and tell me that he just wanna be with me, because he can’t live without me and will never get tired of loving me!!! Oh chills, chills, chills!!! what a nice feeling! I wanna melt again when the right time come…when? we’ll know about it but not now!!!
I hope I’ll be able to apply all the advices that I gave my students to myself… I know I can do it!!! I’m STRONG ‘eh
It’s Monday again, start for another week of teaching. I love my work so much and I’m really enjoying it a lot but there are times that I’m also sensitive towards my profession.
This morning, I had my Chemistry class with my Year10 students. I was so excited to introduce them the new lesson for I know that it’ll be an easy and interesting one for them. The lesson’s about “The Reactivity Series”, so it’ll include a lot of experiments!!! So I did my best to explain all the stuffs that they need to know before conducting the activity because we’ll use acid, so to eliminate accidents, I must brief them first and remind them many times that they have to be very careful. I did the first experiment with Mg to produce its oxide by steam, conclusion…it’s a success!!! A beautiful white powder was seen inside the test-tube, it’s MgO!!! Afterwards, it’s the students turn, they need to do the reactivity of medium reactive metals with acid, then came the chaos! OMG! my students just started to be very noisy. For a while I gave some space to them to discuss to their groupmates about the metals that they needed to test…but as time passes by, I can’t handle it anymore! They’re really NOISY and they’re POPPING my eardrums!!! There Ms. Joyce exploded! I wasn’t able to control myself anymore so what I did is get my book and hit it on my desk to catch their attention…BANG! all of them got surprised and stood quiet, they knew me well. I seldom get angry but don’t force me. Since I’m already pissed with my voice (having sore throat so I can’t speak well) and I prepared a lot to make this activity a special one, I simply do not deserve their childish actions. Verdict, I sent them all to detention and asked them to write an essay titled “ARE we LOUD enough?”
Again, it’s Monday…..terrible sore throat, got pissed, students hated me for losing their lunch time and spending it with the teacher on duty in the detention room. It’s gonna be Tuesday tomorrow, I wonder what will happen next. Hope that their not that loud anymore!!!
I am always having problems when it comes to writing and now I’m experiencing it again. This will be my first time to blog-for-real, before it’s just nothing, taking it for granted, writing non-sense. But now, it’s gonna be different…there’s something inside me that’s giving me a strong drive to express whatever I’m feeling and it’s telling me that “Joyce, you need to write!” Maybe, this is a good outlet, I can be me and do all the stuffs that I’m envying from other people. Yes, you heard it right! I really envy those people who can write and have interesting blogs. I enjoy reading them and now I am one of them, here writing my own post.
I owe this to a very close friend of mine. Thanks to you my dear! You’ve influenced me in a lot of things and I’m grateful that I have you as my friend:) I’m starting to have another outlook in life and I’m looking forward that I’ll be able to express it all here! Cheers